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Is it really stupid to let my skin determine how I feel about myself? How can I change it?

This is a long rant, so please bear with me.

So I've suffered from severe acne for 4 years, and I hated it. I hated the way I looked, I was embarrassed to go out in public in fear of what people might think of me because of my skin condition, talking in front of class was a complete nightmare; I developed an eating disorder cos I felt fat (allthough when looking back I realized that I was in fact super thin to the point where my bones would stick out), I hated every facial feature, my hair, my body...everything. I tried every acne treatment out there, and it didn't work. I kept waiting for that Hollywood-story where "the ugly duckling" turns into the swan, and it never happened for me...and then I tried a new skin treatment and within 3 months, my acne was gone. Completely. I did still have the scars, but they faded over a 6 month period and before starting at a new school, my skin was clear and it stayed that way. I gained weight and now have a normal weigh - a few pounds more than what l would like, but that's okay ;) I started seeing features in my face that I liked, and I even dared to talk to strangers, something that I have never ever done before. That was about a year ago, and I have even gone outside, in public, without make up! I haven't done that since the 7th grade! But Last week I started breaking out like crazy...I have never had cystic acne, but all of the sudden I now have it on my jaw, my cheeks (I never had breakouts on the cheek), my forehead...all over my face, and it looks terrible. And within days my "new" self-esteem is crumbling. I feel ugly and terrible, and I even considered staying home from school today cos I feel so low about myself and the way I look. All the negative things I felt have come crashing back, and I don't know what to do...Is it ridiculous to feel this way? How can I fix it? I have never been bullied or anything over it, so there is no obvious reason why this should affect me so...Thanks for any (constructive) replies...please no mean comments, really can't take it right now...
sorry, realized this is in the wrong category